Tired? Quit? Hmmm, makes me think!
OH SHYET! I miss being a BUM! I miss the relaxing moment! I miss the time when I don’t have to think about tomorrow. SHYET NA MALAGKET! I miss it when I don’t have to think, when everything just pops out in the knoggin!
Someone inside me keeps on pushing me to quit, but that’s not me. I never quit, and I’m proud to say it. The Schizo in me is acting up again and I like it. But, can I take it for 3 years? Hmmmm, mixed feelings, can I take this every three days of duty, can I take it not to be with my loved ones that often? But to push myself for a better professional growth is the foundation that stops me from throwing in the towel.
Stuart Little says that “there’s always a silver lining”! Yeah! I know! But getting there is not that easy. That “growth” that I’m talking about is the only thing that keeps me from quitting and nothing else. I guess, that “nothing else” adds to the burden. Nothing to push me forward. The work and the patients surely does not push me. It frustrates me more. But then again, three years should not be that long, or is it?
Am I going crazy? Well, self assessment, HELL NO! Nyahahaha! I’ve been crazy and will always be and so, what’s there to be crazy about? Hmmm, lam ko meron but…..
